Preparing myself....

Only a couple more days before we head off to camp and fellowship with other Wellington Youth.  Should make for a great weekend of sharing.  Will be nice to be away from home for a bit.

Since my last blog I have received a lot of encouragement that has really been uplifting to my spirit.  Amazing how positive words can have such an impact on your life.  I am very big on building relationships and not breaking them.  As such an impact that positive words have on our lives, so do negative words that can crush you.

I was just sharing with Dan and my sister Liz about how easily encouragement has made me feel very proud about the thought of committing myself as a preacher but then I quickly assess my thoughts and remind myself how important the role of a preacher is and to truly ask myself whether I would be ready to take on that commitment.  Again the power of self-talk and the Holy Spirit helped me to be fully aware of the dangers of taking encouragement as something for one's own glory!!!...Snap out of that one :)....will pray about it! :)

I am still contemplating on what to share with the youth this Saturday.  I am looking forward to the opportunity.  I feel that I will be okay and will be able to restrain myself from shedding any tears that will prevent me from saying what I need to.

I just set up my workstation in my room.  Sitting at it right now with its sleek black colour and textbooks staring at me in the face as I look up, I feel organised.  I feel prepared. :)  But will I start studying?? hmmm now that's a question for tomorrow ;)  I have prepared a few things for this weekend first.

I read a few previous blogs and it's a great feeling to know that if this blog doesn't inspire as many people it continues to inspire me which I absolutely love.  To think that these words came from me....no I think they came from Him.  So that one day I can go back and read entries that will motivate and inspire me again.

I found a blog I wrote about a planning day that Dan organised for the Hutt Valley regional youth.  Thinking back to that day.  It was great.  We were a small group of representatives but so effective.  Sharing our big ideas for the future of our combined youth groups.  We were very enthusiastic and ambitious but we left that meeting feeling accountable.  I think that's one of the things we lack in our lives...not feeling accountable..not feeling like there is a consequence to any of our actions.  Understandable as it is for young people because they still live with their parents and haven't really grasped what it means to put food on the table, to pay the bills but that shouldn't be an excuse right?  How do I teach my girls the value of a dollar when they won't truly understand until they earn a dollar themselves?? I used to envy my cousins who I thought lived in the upper end of town.  They went to a pretty good school, in a well off suburb.  They had a 3 - 4 level house, with 4 bathrooms, a swimming pool, and....well basically everything that I didn't.  But in saying that I remember talking with my aunty about the things they were blessed with and she said made me realise that not matter what you have, you will always find something that you are not satisfied about.  Even my cousins felt that they didn't have the latest in computer games etc like their friends.  She has taught them to appreciate what they do have because there are others in this world, in this country, in this community, in your family that do not have what they have.  I can only pray that God gives me the wisdom and knowledge to teach our girls what is important in this life.  Again I am reminded of the scripture we learnt in Sunday school recently about not worrying about the treasures of this world but what awaits for you in heaven.  hmmmm......

For now I am going to pack my things for camp and continue to prepare for my sharing session on Saturday night....I am looking forward to writing about my weekend.  May take my laptop along to write at night....

Until then...xxx