Trying to ignore these feelings... :'(

You know ...I have to say that I love my God so much....and I know that He loves me unconditionally too!....

These last couple of days has brought me some uneasiness ...physically...it is almost a year since I fell ill, with that in mind my heart is clouded.  My back has not been feeling too good lately.  Well more like there is a different sensation that I feel.  The more I think about it, the more I feel that it gets worse.  I know in my heart that God has this great plan for my life and there is sooo much for me to do but I am feeling that something's gotta give and I REFUSE FOR THAT SACRIFICE TO BE MY HEALTH!  I admit I am not in my best shape and my focus in life shouldn't be about trying to get the perfect figure or have my outter shell reflect what society SAYS I should be..but it's hard.  I feel like it's a hindrance on so many things that I want to do.

I think about everything that I am doing right now and weigh up the things that I should sacrifice and today it was my career...I felt quite sad thinking about what I would have to give up.  As I write this blog, what goes through my mind is "Make a decision that will change your life".  It plays over and over in my head.  Like I said I absolutely love my job and I absolutely believe with confidence that He has blessed me with it, with the purpose to learn as much as I can so that I can use it in His ministry.  It saddens me to think that leaving my career will leave such a big hole in my life. I really need to seek some guidance on this.

My appointment is booked for next Monday.  As I have done I will continue with living life and really putting in prayer what God wants me to do....only He knows what is best for my family.  In saying that ...I am thankful that Dan and I have just signed off on our life insurance so in that area we are okay....

To God be All the Glory!!!! xxx