I give myself away...

I give myself away
I give myself away
So you can use me

I give myself away
I give myself away
So you can use me

Here I am
Here I stand
Lord my life is in your hands
Lord I'm longing to see
your desires revealed in me

My life is not my own
to you I belong
I give myself
I give myself to you


This song is so beautiful and is a true reflection of my spiritual walk since I became a christian on the 29th of September 2000. :)  This weekend was such a blessing.  Of course as most camps go, you will get a few that just don't want to be there, but give them time and the right mix of people to hang out with and you've developed some strong relationships.

Friday was a great warm up to what the weekend was going to bring.  Listening to other leaders sharing was inspiring.  It was a challenge to motivate youth to open up, but it was worth it in the end.  Saturday's encouragement was inspiring even for me as a leader.  The morning's Word came from Genesis 1: 1 - 2.  It was great to be reminded that darkness is man-made.  God's light moves in our situations and overcomes any darkness we face.  I enjoyed just spending time with youth.  Sharing with them.  Getting to know more about their walks and putting challenges to them.

Our services on Saturday night and Sunday were just so awesome.  The atmosphere was filled with love, challenges, spirits ready to move forward.  All kinds of tears were shed that night and the next morning's service.  In my sharing with the youth I described that when I first became a Christian my tears were tears of forgiveness but I am happy to say that the tears I shed for my Lord are tears of complete love and faith that He continues to provide for me!  He does so much for me and the simplest of these would be blessing me with a carpark that is 2 mins walk from my work when I was already late!...so blessed...

My sharing with the youth was based around the theme of making decisions that will change your life.  It took a long time to work out what it was exactly that I..no God wanted me to share.  And in the end the simple message was that through my life I have made decisions that were thankfully the right ones because each time God has blessed me beyond what I could ever imagine!!  I cannot describe the goodness that He has done for me, and I will continue to serve Him with complete faith!  I am not perfect but I will strive to do my best to live my life pleasing to him.  I know that any mistakes I made along the way is not of His doing but of my own.  But I am now in a position spiritually where I can just learn from my mistakes and move on.  Surrounded by supportive, spiritual and loving people I am able to move on.  I pray that you have that support surrounding you.

Amazing that while our youth were together at camp, what was happening around us astounded me.  Earthquakes and Tsunamis in Japan!! Killing between two cultures in Australia!! Our wake up calls are getting stronger, and so I work harder to serve!

At our service last night, I felt something that I had not felt for a long time.  With having so much going on in my life I knew that I needed to rely on God so much more.  My tears came from my wanting to serve Him more.  In my heart from the time I accepted Jesus I always felt that I needed to keep giving Him more.  That I don't deserve His love but He deserves mine.  I suppose that's why I try to do so much.  But today was another decision I made that would change my life.  I offered myself to preach His word.  I had thought about this for a very long time and after a lot of encouragement from close family I decided in prayer that this was my opportunity to rely on Him again.  I also responded to a call during the morning service for those who have a ministry in their hearts.  My ministry is to help develop the skills and experience of our brothers and sisters in Christ to build God's kingdom.  I am very big on this because I believe that everyone has something to offer.  With everyone working together we can build such a great "Mansion" as  good friend Kitiona Leota said during his sharing.

So....now with big events drawing near I am set to be busy again.  :) During this week I did feel pings in my back but I ignored them thinking that my mind was playing tricks on me.  I think I am just tired and I don't want my body to crumble now when things are going so great and our God is so good nothing is impossible to Him.

So I look forward to the opportunity where I can share His word.  It will be an experience I will never forget....

Bless all of the Wellington Youth over the weekend, their Pastors, Youth leaders and families for their hearts to want to serve our God. xxx